Okay so maybe I’m feelin sapience today and was thinking that I feel great about life right now. I’m usually that person who is like “okay so when is the other shoe gonna drop” kind of person. Good things happen to me but usually right after something bad does too. I’m not sure what’s happened lately maybe I’ve just finally learned to let it go, but right now I can honestly say things are great. I have great friends who I cherish deeply. I didn’t realize till I was reminiscing about happy hour last night and couldn’t help but think how I could possibly have as much fun as I do with these people but I do. I love every one of them I feel loved by them. They accept me for who I am and no what I am. I admire their strength which gives me strength. I know deep down in the pit of my stomach I’m going to be friends with these people for a long time to come. You can’t really ask for too much more than that. I used to think that the number of friends you had was supposed to be better, now the older I get and the more I grow I realize it’s so much more about quality of friends versus quantity. I can count on barely two hands the number of people that I would call for any given situation. I feel appreciated and cherished by them. I’m just tryin to live my life and they are tryin to live it with me.

I met up with a friend last night I hadn’t seen in years. I looked at her already half way into my tipsy stupor and said her name she looked at me not knowing who I was at first as my looks have definitely changed over the past year but then the light came on and she screamed my name and went in for a big hug. I couldn’t believe it. It’s been almost 5 years since I seen her last and assumed I may never again. I missed her like hell we used to have so much fun together but fate, karma, happenstance or whatever you want to call it came in and said you are meant to meet up with this person again. So here I am meeting her again after almost 5 years and it was like we hadn’t missed a beat. It was great. We already have 2 sets of plans again like we had never been apart. I can’t wait. I still have that little devil on my shoulder sayin negative nelly things about something bad that’s comin around the corner but I refuse to listen. I’m truly beginning to believe you put good out there and you get good back. I’m not doing anything profound. I’m not joining the Peace Corps or traveling to Africa to nurse the kiddies back to health. It’s not been anything extreme at all. I’ve simply just started to be happy. To let the bad shit roll off my shoulders and take it for what it is, a moment, that will pass leaving room for new moments, a meeting, a chance encounter, anything really.

Okay I’m off my soap box just hard to put my thoughts out into the world