I sit here in my new house, wondering what lies ahead. Who will I meet, who will I say goodbye to.

So many things have changed since my first day here in Japan.

I sometimes forget that I'm not really a citizen. That I'm only here as long as my Visa lasts.

I got swept up and carried away - i let myself get that way. I have so many stories, so many memories...I wonder if I'll ever get to share them with the amount of respect those memories deserve. I let fate drive for a while, then I took control.

I often wonder what it will be like when I eventually go back to Australia - what I'll talk about, what I'll keep to myself. What message I'll give and what experienes I'll take away.

The people I've met here aren't just a side comment, or a piece of interest - they've helped shape the woman I am today. Just like those who I originally left - who loved me enough to let me go. Two completely different worlds - both with me in common, and a world of History to share. So many borders crossed, lives effected, hearts twisted, souls identified.

I came here scared, 22, and clueless. Here I am now - 25, confident, ambitious. Curious.

Who will I be when I'm 28? Where will I be when I'm 30?

I pulled a gray hair out of my head, a lone gray at the back of my head, away from the ones on the side of my face. When did that happen...when did I stop wanting to get older? Freeze time freeze time!! I still want to be a rock star!

Do you ever feel like that?

xo