I've know her for over 15 years, but just recently became her friend. She has been a cusomer in my store for years. I was transfered to a nearby location about five years ago and I would continue seeing her there. I would enjoy seeing her and always found her witty remarks and humor intriguing but my gayday was non-existence. I used to be strait, but I kinda always knew I was gay. About two months ago, simataneously with my heartsinking breakup with my first girlfriend, I was transfered back to my old store. We have a mutual friend in a young man that is paralyzed from the waist down. He usually sits outside in his wheelchair and sells blow-pops. I walked in on a conversation one day and I guess by the way I was looking at her she told me, Yes, by the way I'm gay. I don't remember asking but I was interested. I poked our mutual buddy for information and I thought she would be a great person to go clubing with. He told me she loved to dance and go out. I really don't do that kind of thing anymore, I've settled down as my kids have grown, but I really wanted to go to a Lesbian dance club. We exchanged numbers on another store encounter and I thought everything was great. We hit it off well, too well, we were in bed together after the second date. I guess I let my attraction towards her and the lack of sex cloud my judgement. She is amazing in bed and her kisses do captivate me, but I didn't feel that in depth feeling that you get when you gaze effortleslly into your lovers eyes with hopless abandonment and simply get lost into the possibilities of, "What if". I found myself looking away when she would give me that look. She says she feels like she knows me forever and she also said that she always had a feeling that I was gay, but that she respected me because I acted srait and then was married with kids. She believes in fate and destiny and says we were drawn together by both. I'm glad I met her in this new way and she has helped me realize my flaws in my past relationship. The only thing is that somewhere along the way, mind you it's only been about three weeks of dating, she told me she was in love with me. I think she is just infatuated with the rush. We did too much, too soon. I really enjoyed talking to her and I still find her smokin hot, but sadly I think we ended it yesterday. She texted me this morning with a '"Good morning and a Thanks for the memories". I guess we are clear. I haven't texted back, I dunno if it is appropriate. I would love to be her friend but I just rather not confuse the situation anymore than I have. Sorry for rambling, Thanks for sharing. :)

I have been fortunate to have tasted love twice, but alas it wasn't meant to be. This is why I had to be honest with her from the begginig about my feelings. I have always been in commited relationships, but I've had friends that have had odd relationships without commitment, i just figures we were both adults and could handle it. We moved on preety fast after the initial flirting and maybe that's how she felt lead on. Perhaps my words did not match my kisses. But, yeah, I know I have to end it before it gets worse. I just feel bad about the whole situation. Thank you for the poetic justice. I really enjoyed your comparison to a symphony, I found your words bursting with eloquence and wisdom

I needed it. I just gotta end it, I guess it just felt good to be wanted again. I tried ending it today, but then she went all, " Nobody loves me" and stuff. I tried to comfort her and I told her she was an amazing person, but we just weren't meant to be. I also told her that she shouldn't give up on love and that the perfect woman was out there , but she didn't want to hear it, I had to go back in from my lunch break, so we just left it at that. Should I pick up the phone or answer her textes if she calls? or Should I just cut her off cold turkey for her own good? I don't want to be mean. Thank you again for your sincerity

Yeah, I do care for her, but like you said I just don't see myself getting to the mushy, loving part. The emotional connection just isn't there. Thanks for sharing. I love your quote," Every day is a good day, just some better than others."

I'm just afraid of ending it because I really like her as a friend, It's so hard to find people you could actually have a conversation with nowadays. I think that if I end it, I'll lose her completely. I also think that I am being selfish hanging on to fullfill my friendship and sexual needs. I'm torn. Thank you so much. I really enjoyed reading the last paragraph. I've read it over and over like a kabillion times. You rock, litteraly. :)