Okay so this has a long story behind it which I will try to sum up. I came out just over a year ago to all my friends and family. The first person I told was my best friend(I'll call her 'S') who I've known since grade 9 so thats 7 years ago. After i came out to her she wanted to know everything.. about my relationships, how sex was, what drama i was in, all those sort of questions. I should mention at the time she had a boyfriend who she was with for 4 years. Anyways, about 6 months after I came out we went to a lame country bar with some friends and basically just got hit on by cheesy cowboys. But at the bar she kept saying "you have to make sure i'm good tonight" at first I thought she was refering to the cheesy cowboys and cheating on her boyfriend, but then later on in the night it became aparent she was talking about me. I did not do anything with her that night even though it was clear she wanted to. Since that night we would flirt all the time it was a little out of hand, but it was just flirting. Then fastforward to 3 months ago, I had a "White Party" to attend at the outside (a gay bar) but my ex who is not a friendly ex made things really akward and i desided to leave 20 mins after i got there. I then went to S's house and she had a few friends over. Keep in mind i was in my white outfit still and it was a fucking hot outfit. Anyways S completely ignored her other friends that were over and was sending me text messages even though i was right beside her. Then everyone went home and we went on facebook because she wanted to see which girls were my type. while we were looking on her laptop we were pretty much on top of eachother and it was aparent what we both wanted something to happen but she still had her boyfriend and I'm not about to cause drama with that. After the white party the flirting got more intense. And shortly after her and her boyfriend broke up. Then about a month and a half ago I was pretty drunk and she wanted to have a "heart to heart" talk so we went outside and had the most intense conversation ever. To sum it up I told her i was attracted to her and it sucks because shes straight and that i dont wanna lose my friendship with her. She said that she was attracted to me and its scary for her because she only has ever felt this way about me and that if i was a guy theres no doubt we would be together for the rest of our lives. We then desided at the moment that nothing can happen between us because our friendship is more important. However, things are not going this way. We make out when no one is around, we text eachother constantly, we see eachother everyday... basically its getting out of hand and I need to know if I should stop because shes straight and just straying a bit or if i should put my heart out there? Keep in mind no matter what I dont want to lose my bestfriend.