I can't believe you decided to do this at the most inopportune time... but I digress, you know this already. I come from a religious background so I know how hard this can be and I truly wish you the best with this situation. I say, pretend for now that everything is sinking in but don't let them convince you that you're going to hell. You're almost done with college and you can move on from here with your education and knowing who you are. Trust me, many of them that aren't gay are going to hell in the handbasket coming down the assembly line before yours. I say, fu** them all, but not literally. lol

I live in salt lake city, ut. on the KSL news at 5:00pm
oct. 8, the LDS(mormon)church announced that they actively have launched a church funded campaign for people to vote YES to PROP 8 in California. Their argument is that it is
not a political issue it's a moral issue. This on top of
the things going on already in california could be lethal.
If other groups aren't already on this kind of path it may
signal them too. It could just set a stage whose cast may
grow.
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I hope you make it emotionally through all of this in one
piece, God loves us all, he made us all. At least as far back as the DSM III, we're not a mental health disorder,
disease or defect. I haven't seen the DSM IV but I'm sure
that has not changed. That's all you need to know to be
secure that there is nothing wrong with you. We are no
different than the rest of the population. We are ministers
criminals,school teachers,garbage collectors, we also like
to make life with a partner and raise a family just like
other people. There is no reason under God that we shouldn't have those same rights without bigotry of any kind. I wish only the very best in your life.

love & peace, Kathy

I totally went to a Christian college as I was coming to terms with the fact that I was gay...man I picked a good time! lol...anyway...I transferred before anything like that ccould've happened...but know you are made in god's own image...he would never create you to be anything but the way he wanted you to be and he loves you just the same...no matter what...all he cares about is that you have love for him in your heart and love for others...no matter what the gender...hold your head up!

I've never been on a christian school, but something happen to me that was a bit similar. When my mom found out I have a girlfriend things were burning.. She has never been so faithful or religious but since then she is making all the research possible to make me "straight".. she says being gay is not the right thing under gods eyes and that I should change. She has looked for therapists, priests, and people to talk to me to convince that I am wrong and that I am confused.. My girlfriend is coming to Mexico for my graduation on December, and I usually spend this holidays with my family but now we are not aloud to spend it with them because we are gay. It feels bad to be discriminated by your own family but at the end it feels good that I have someone that supports me and I will live with sometime soon..

I hope people could be more open and see things with other perspective.. Things are not always black or white..

I have been in a similar situation. I went to a Christian undergrad (Lee University) and then to a Christian grad school (Regent University). There were many times I was questioned in undergrad, actually one of my roommates told her mom that she thought I was gay and her mom called my mom. That was awkward. My grad experience was too much to bear and I left the school after a year. I was half way through getting my masters in counseling and I still left. These can be the worst times, but it makes you stronger in the end. Please keep your head high. You would be surprised to know how many other lesbians and gays are at your school. I know I was and actually even one of my teachers confided in me that she was a lesbian. I know these times are hard and you have conflicting emotions, but just stay true to yourself. You know who you are at the end of the day no matter how much they try to break you. Stay strong!

but once your in college in America, aren't you old enough to make your own choices (including moving schools)? How old are you?

I would rather go out on my own (even if that means taking out student loans) rather than have my parents and school put me through that)

Don't you have a legal right to not participate in that?

It's your own life!

Thank you so much for sharing this. I can't imagine how hard this has been for you, but I definitely admire your courage.

Have you ever heard of the Gay Christian Network? Here is their website: gaychristian.net I've found it to be really helpful in trying to find a sort of 'balance' between my sexuality and my faith. Contrary to what 'Exodus' and your school tell you, homosexuality is not 'incompatible' with Christianity.

Keep your chin up, and be blessed :-)

Please try to remember exactly what they say and post it here. I'm certain it will be hilarious. I mean, already you have "A one-on-one session with a trained Christian therapist." Can you IMAGINE such a person? Nothing funnier than someone trained to de-gay people. I don't advocate psychologists/therapists for almost anyone since I believe it's a bullshit scheme, but a trained de-gayer is a beast that is in serious need of counselling. A person who sits and bitches about other people's lives has got to be an absolute paragon of pathetic living. That has got to be funny as all hell.

Woah your situation does not sound like fun. But just hang in there. I'm gonna tell you what I believe. Don't use this as ammunition against them, but just keep the thought in the back of your mind. You are not sinning.

Christ himself did not say anything, to my knowledge about the sin of being gay. Homosexuality as a 'sin' was a belief constructed by saint Paul. A human. A man (and chauvinist one at that). That concept is manmade

Now with that thought in mind, read romans 8, 38-39

Much love

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Thanks for posting, and I'm really sorry about what you are going through. I went to a Christian college that was not nearly as conservative as yours, but they did consider practicing homosexuality a sin. Many of the students were also incredibly homophobic. Thankfully, the faculty and administration believed in keeping an open dialogue going on the subject instead of trying to get us to "pray out the gay". Soulforce actually visited and it was a really big deal amongst the student body, hehe. I wish I had come out to more people while I was still there, but I felt so ostracized as it was that I didn't want to add to it.

I guess I'm commenting to say that I can sort of relate to what you're going through, and that you will come through this a stronger and wiser person.
Furthermore, I'm sure you've heard that Christ said the greatest commandments are to love the Lord with all your heart, mind, soul and strength and love your neighbor as yourself. If we try to follow those two simple commandments, I don't think it matters if we are gay, straight or anything in between. All we can do on this earth is live within God's grace.

we are here for you. You are strong, you are a great person, you have a good heart, you have knowledge that will take to you to the finish line and you will be successful. Remember always you are not alone. We care about you and are here for you always.

Peace and love!

The guilt and BS that Christians can put on you is almost unbearable at times. I grew up in a strict Christian family where everyone believed and everyone was "saved" but me. I spent every moment of my teenage years planning my escape.

You will make it through. Believe in you.

You're a really strong person! I would break down if people treated me like that all the time...

What Jessestone said.

That which does not kill you, makes you stronger. Keep your head up, and you will walk across with a diploma in hand - and all the more wiser.

I'm no longer a "Christian", but I went through my trials - and don't want to past judge those who are still walking it.

Never stop searching...

But for those that don't know, there are keep words to know if a church is accepting in homosexual lifestyles...

Like Reconciling in Christ.

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They actually do this???? I am soooo sorry you are going through this hell, oddly the "christians" are putting you through.
N!k

i'm so sorry for anyone that has to endure this legalistic, judgemental bullshit. been there. this will make you run sreaming for the hills. my daughter went to a christain high school. im gay she is not. she was the target on so much stuff because of me. there are so many closeted people in these environment because of fear of having to go thru just this. the 2 guys that actually founded exodus are now married. dont fall for this subservient crap, it will make for a life of misery. i know, i was in your exact same spot, except i was 30 and in an assemblies of god church, not in college. i actually had a church member tell me i was gay because i had agender neutral name (kelly)can you imagine this?
i hope and pray that you persevere through this last semester. continue to press on toward the higher goal and reach to achieve that prize you have your eyes fixed on, your education and diploma. i dont mean to sound negative in the first part of post, this kind of stuff just angers me greatly. you will understand that in a year or so, trust me.

I am so, heartbreakingly sorry that you are being forced to endure the treatment you describe. There is nothing Christ-like in it. How cruel to be forced to choose between this awful burden and the education that you have undoubtedly sacrificed for and devoted the last 3(?) years of your life to. I will pray for you, that you make it through to your goal - graduation - unbroken, whole, intact.

It sounds as though you are under too close surveillance for this now, but when you attain your freedom again at graduation, I urge you to seek out a church that is loving, accepting and fully inclusive of everyone, including our communities, and does not teach that God's love is exclusive of those of us who understand that we, too, are created in Her image and can live and love as fully as straight people do. If your faith was important enough to you that you sought out a Christian university, you should not be forced to give up that part of yourself, just as you should not be forced to repress your innate sexuality.

I'm Catholic, and an active member of Dignity, where I can attend Mass and worship weekly without fear of unholy prejudice. I believe that there are LGBT-friendly worship communities of every faith. Some of the more organized: Integrity (Episcopal), Kinship (Seventh Day Adventists), Soulforce (group whose mission is to fight religious bigotry across denominations; I believe its roots are in the Black community), Axios (Greek/Eastern orthodox), Affirmation (Mormons)....The list goes on and on, and extends to the other "faiths of the book," Judaism and Islam, which are generally thought of as perpetrators of religious bigotry. A repository of resources for LGBT Christians can be found via the link below:

http://www.jesusinlove.org/links.php

We cannot be a force for change if we turn away from the problem.

I hope you find your sanctuary.

God bless,
Lisa

~paz y amor siempre

I went through a pretty similar situation. I graduated from a Christian college 2 years ago. My last year there I told a good friend of mine that I was gay. She went behind my back and outed me which resulted in my last semester having to go to counseling once a week, have a spiritual mentor, and attend this meeting with a counselor and a woman who is an Ex-gay. Your experience right now seems more intense but I know you'll pull through it. Although I hated the experience I had to go through and my friend that outed me, I have to thank her because it forced me to come out to my friends, to see who they really were, and also come out to my sisters, one of whom is a Christian youth director. I have never felt more free. I believe in God and I believe that he'll use this experience not only to help you build into a stronger individual but to possibly help someone in the future who may have to face a similar situation.