After last weekend, I know that mom knows about my gay problem.

Lately, I've just been coming out to my friends, one after one. Most of my friends that I hang out with know now. The strangest part?

It feels like a heartache. It hurts. When I first read about the convention, it took my breath away, and i'm not even joking. When I read aloud for my friend, I had to stop and breath.

Just fuck life. I don't want to be here anymore. Give me strength.

I hate not being out. I wish it was more easier then it is. I don't think I'll ever be able to come out in my home town. Cuz of the circumstances.

Oh My God, I want to go!! I'm gonna try my very best to make this happen! I looked at plane tickets and i have to switch plane 3 times to get there! But i dont care! I want to go!

You with the sad eyes

don't be discouraged

oh I realize

it's hard to take courage

in a world full of people

you can lose sight of it all

and the darkness inside you

I think I've got an answer to my own question. Am I gay or straight?