she's two hours away. im going to see her tuesday and wednesday. she makes me feel so good. we make each other smile. she's real. she takes the words from my mouth. she's amazing.

i'm changing, fading, leaving and i can feel it. i hate this and when this happens. i have no idea what to do.

so i'm one of those crazy people who's not big on sex or anything really related to it. i get by with romance. with knowing someone liking me and them wanting me to like them.

Super stressed lately with work, school, and everything else that my life is supposed to consist of. My summer needs some more fun and living in it.

i've lost my mind
my thoughts aren't flowing
my heart is empty
my face isn't glowing
with a brain on hold
nothing makes sense
nothing lights up my eyes, now
nothing will break my defense

i miss that hand to hold.
and those eyes to look into.
watching a smile grow across your face as you spotted the one on mine light up when i saw you....it's gone, all of it.

the best holiday? birthdays....hands down. they're the best. and although mine have never stuck out to be much of a riot, they've been steadily improving as the years pile up.

What is it about high school that keeps people from coming out?