I am not sure if i am coz i only tend to be like this with one person and i do feel bad.But the more i think i should try and change the way i look at her,i cant make that switch.Maybe it requires tim

Today i admitted to a friend,ex girlfriend actually that i have begun to realise that i as drawn to things that are not normal.

It dawned upon me that one day all that i have with her at the moment....will come to an end.And im also sure that what we have at the moment aint PERKS!
We will never celebrate birthdays together.

We grow up...YES! we do, no matter what.I just think that some people refuse to except it because it means having to change the way they look at things.

So we speak again after so many random and unneccesary conversations over the week, and when we finally have a decent conversation..i decide to bring up the FACT that our friendship is dying.I ask her

I have been thinking about you...in normal and sometimes in cheeky thoughts...and its the cheeky ones that sends a rush of blood to my head..it excites me,even after 52560 hours...

Nobody knows it,but youve got a secret smile
and you use it, only for me
So, use it and prove it.....
Save me from this madness...

I have done the best in the past 2 weeks than i have ever done.Its amazing, together with a little fear that my passion is dying.I am wonderin if that is possible???????